Wow! That’s really all that I can say. I have FINALLY gotten off my keester and started living a bit. With all that has happened I have found the need to do new things so that I don’t turn the corner and see ‘her’ in everything. (Even though I do anyway.) To that end I have found different groups of people to engage in activities with. Done NEW and exciting stuff ranging from drum circles (which I love) to concerts to laser tag and even tubing down the river. There are just some days that I am having the best time. Most of these things are firsts for me. Now, I’m not saying it hasn’t been hard, it has. Even though some people think I am a social butterfly, I’m not. Maybe I was in a life that seems just this side of forever ago, it’s just not that way any longer. It has been rough putting myself out there. After my recent developments, I obviously have self worth issues. Who wouldn’t? But for the most part putting myself in these situations has been worth it. The glimpses of sanity, sunlight and happiness I have had, however brief, has been worth overcoming the fear of “getting out there”. I know it’s hard, believe me, I know. But get out there and try something new. The rewards are definitely high. Take that first step, it’s a doozy!